Some Times You Just Can't Do Ne Thing But Cry

So my sadness always ends up being all Ian's fault...He didnt actually do anything to me today its just the fact all the stuff he's fuckin done and how stupid he is...I'm Like Real in b/w...At one point i fuckin hate him and he can fall in a ditch and die and rot and bugs can fly around him...on da otha end i still care about him and if he called me tommorow and said "Cee Cee I need you" i would be there for him cuz im just a good nice person like that...So sometimes i think im just waaaaay too nice for people to handle and they take advantage of that...see Ian being example...like all i wanna do is eat and like listen to like sad songs n just think...One of my girls said i should find somebody else to get my mind off of him...But i dunno anotha nigga in my life right now...that might make things worse...at the same time it could make things better fuck i dunno....ne way i'll holla back later....

~ceedy!~